Saturday, February 10, 2007

We are finally home!!!!!

This has been the worst 11 days of my life!! I would not wish our experience on my worst enemy. I am so glad to be home. We got home around 7:30pm last night. I had to beg and plead with the doctor to let him go, because he was having bradichardia episodes, where his heart rate would have a baseline of like 62, but they finally listened to me that it was the adavan, which is a pain med. For some reason Rhett had a really weird reaction to it. But even with the low heart rate he was fine, and his O2 levels were good, and all that stuff. I knew he was fine, I just had to convince the doctors that he was.

Rhett is going through drug withdrawls, because he was on so many different drugs up there. He is shaking really bad and his eyes shake back and forth more than they did before we went up there. But it is getting better, so that tells me that it is the drugs and not brain damage from him crashing. (WHEW) so far so good on that one. He has regressed in some of his gross motor skills, as far as sitting, he is really wobbly now, and crawling he has totally lost. He was going backwards before all of this. He dosen't want to stand and use his legs now either. He is still patty caking, kissing, doing so big, and sticking his tounge out and saying BLAHHHHHH. It is good to see his personality shine through. I missed that so bad.

He is terrified of his crib, because in the hospital every time they did any type of procedure he was laying in his crib, and talk about stranger anxiety! He is very wary of people, and looks at them like oh no, what are you going to do to me now, everytime someone talks to him. Last night him and I spent the night with him in my arms sleeping. It was so nice. I am so in love with my baby I don't know what I would have done if I lost him. I am really angry that this happened to him. He is such a fighter, and he knows that he is loved. He is so happy to be home, and we are so happy to have him home.

While we were up there I had a really hard time, and shed alot of tears, and just wished that I could protect my baby, and Andy was so strong, and stood by me, and held me when I cried, and was there for me. I couldn't ask for a better husband or father. Now it is my turn to do the same for him. Everything has finally hit him, and he realized that he almost lost his baby. I think Rhett senses this, because Andy will sit there and watch him, and Rhett will look up at him and you can just see the absolute love and adoration in his eyes, like he is saying Daddy I love you and I am going to be ok. Then he reaches for him, and grins and gives him a huge hug. It just melts my heart, to know that Rhett understands and knows that we are going through a rough time, and that HE is trying to comfort US.

I am so thankful that I have all of my kids, after being in the PICU for 9 days it amazes me that any of us have normal healthy children walking around, and I have to remind myself that it is such a tiny percent of the population that is up there fighting for their lives. I really hope that Rhett isn't harboring anymore secerts in that little body of his. His morgagni hernia that he had was such a rare thing, that all of his nurses and doctors had to read up on it because it just never happens.

Thank you once again for all of your prayers and thoughts, I know that the power of prayer works, and it helps people heal. I don't think we could have made it through all of this without your support. Now we are looking forward to every second that we have left here on this earth, and we are not going to waste a minute of it!!!!!! I will post some homecoming pics later. Right now I am going to endulge in some cheesecake and cuddle with my boy!


Christina said...

I am so glad Rhett is doing so well and that you guys ot to go home! Enjoy every second of it.

Jessica said...

I'm so happy to hear Rhett is home! I will continue to pray for you guys and enjoy your cuddles and cheesecake!!!

Jen said...

Such great news! I know you guys are just thrilled to be home; especially Rhett. I'm so sorry all of this happened to you the best you can to put it all behind you, and get on with normal, boring, everyday, wonderful life!

Michelle and Elliot said...

Oh Pam. I am so glad to hear that you are all where you belong - HOME AT LAST. Dear Rhett is such a fighter and you and Andy are so very strong. And Rhett is reaching out for you...trying to alleviate some of your stress. Funny how our babies do that - love the people that need it most! I thank God that you are home and...You’ll continue to be in our prayers.

Michelle and Elliot (from T21)

jennifer said...

Here's to cheesecake and hugs and terrific husband and being HOME. I can't tell you how happy this post made me...HOORAY!

Princess Morgan said...

What a joyous day and such a precious boy you have. We will pray for his continued recovery. So glad to hear you are all in the comfort of your own home. Enjoy every precious moment...sounds like you are.