Monday, June 9, 2008

Sorry For The Lack Of Updates......

To tell you the truth I am in a funk, a major one, and I have all sorts of feelings going on and quite frankly I don't know how to sort them all out.

Rhett is fine, the kids are fine, I just have so much going on that I can't keep everything straight. We are moving the 3rd week in July and I have no idea how I am going to pack up the whole damn house and take care of a child recovering from surgery, not to mention being a mom to my other kids and a wife to my husband.

I don't even have the time or energy to make dinner anymore. My laundry is piled up to kingdom come after Barfest 2008, and I need to be out searching for boxes. Which isn't happening anytime soon.

Then PCMC called us today asking when we were going to be paying our bill from when Rhett had RSV, and how much we could put down on his latest stay. I wasn't too nice and basically told them to shove it. Bill collectors breathing down my neck is the last thing I need right now.

I swear to you one of these days that money tree is going to sprout up in my back yard. I was so excited for Andy to go back to work and have a great income, and now as we play catch up, and the medical bills keep piling up it makes me worried and wonder how we are going to make it. It's almost just as bad as him not working.

And don't even get me started on gas prices. With it being 4 dollars a gallon, and PCMC being over 80 miles away just kills us. We are driving up there at least 3-4times a month, sometimes more.

Like I said I am in a funk, and when I get into a funk I become a hermit, and I need to start preparing myself mentally for another surgery. It's only 6 days away and counting, and everyone knows how I panic come surgery time. Especially when I know we will be in ICU afterwards, and this is the first surgery that he will have where he is going to need major pain meds, not just loratab since his overdose. Where he can't have Morphine I don't know what they will give him. I just pray to God it isn't Dilaudid.

11 comments:

Carey said...

Can I join you in "funk ville?" I'm with ya sister! Not sure why, gas prices kicking my butt too, can't go anywhere, it's too expensive! And too much to do, I could clean all day every day and it wouldn't be done! By the way, why are you moving again? I can't believe that stinking hospital, why are they always calling you and Tammy about your bill? That's ridiculous! Way to go by telling them to shove it, what are they thinking?

My Three Sons said...

Pam,

I know it's easier said than done but hang in there. You can only do so much and I think you prove that to us everyday!! Just take care of what is important now. Take care of Rhett and your other babies.

The hospital thing is never ending. Good job for speaking up to them. They really need to get some training in social skills. I get the same problem over co-payments not getting paid quick enough. Carson went in to urgent care back in Nov and they sent me a bill for $1200.00. I couldn't understand why the insurance paid all of the other bills and not that one. So I called Childrens and of course the rude lady on the other end didn't care and wanted to know how quickly I would be paying the balance. So I called the insurance company to find out the hospital logged it as dental not asthma. So the hospital makes the mistake and do you think that Sheeneka apologizes for her rudeness when I call back? No, she just told me that she would refile my claim and I should expect to pay a co-pay for urgent care and would I like to do a credit card over the phone? I told her to basically stick it where the sun won't shine. So long story short, I know where your coming from! ANyways, hope you have a better Tuesday.

Maren said...

Pam,
I know what you mean! The bill collectors are insane. I don't even answer when they call anymore. If you find the money tree, please be sure to send out seeds :)! Take care of yourself.

Maren

~Melissa~ said...

I'm so sorry Pam. :( Still thinking of you and praying for you. I know you will get through it, but is sure has been a rough road!

Anonymous said...

I read your post & it makes me realize that so many people are so extremely stressed-and it makes me feel rotten for you...and others! Especially for those mom's who care & do so much. I saw on the news that a small lake here in WI overflowed with 7 excess inches of rainwater and it literally swept entire homes into the swift current...horrifying. Another crazy story involving a drunk woman driving a Porshe at 75mph through Green Bay and t-boned a car with two H.S. grads leaving the mall from work-killing the girls. Driver lived and she's in jail. I am wondering how do people get through it? Just like you guys...I don't know how you make it through the day..it has to be a physical and emotional drain. I feel very helpless but know that you are in my thoughts. Look to August and hold on tight til then.
Jayne in WI

Kyle, Aimee & Ava said...

I wish the best for you and your family. I can empathize with you on the medical bills. When I had my little one, they ended up doing an emergency c-section. Well between that and my gall bladder surgery, my insurance company paid the hospital and doctors like $32K so I had a remaining balance around $2k. Do you think they would look at writing any of that off or setting up a payment plan?? Heck no, the actually sent my check back for $25 because it wasn't "enough". I told them to stick it and they could take me to court. Have seen anything yet but I'm just waiting!

Kaden and Angel Ava's mommy said...

Just know that I am praying for you and your family.

Those darn hospitals and their money...I wish they were more understanding.

Hugs being sent your way.

Love,
Amy

Imsavimsa said...

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time with everything.

I wrote earlier about the PainBuster that my son got after his fundoplication. I found a web page that explains it, maybe they can use it on Rhett when he gets his fundo?

Here's the link: http://www.erdamed.com/E.Pain%20Buster.htm

Kind regards,
Mia mom to Victor (Noonan Syndrome)
Aland Islands, Finland

Marla said...

Money is such a nightmare for so many people right now. I hope that donations are helping you out some.

Brent & Jodie said...

I hear you my friend, I think I'm in the same funk. Here's hoping it lifts soon, for all of us!

Sustenance Scout said...

Pam, thanks so much for your email update; I just caught up on all your latest posts. Hooray about the house! I'm so glad that's a bright spot for you and hope it helps to keep you going. Know that many, many people all over are cheering you on and praying for you as well as for Rhett and your entire family. You're one of the bravest, strongest people I know. Keep the faith, kiddo. Love, K.