Saturday, November 29, 2008

Bah Humbug.....

That's the way I feel today. I put up our tree yesterday, but for some reason I don't feel like putting anything else up this year. If I didn't have the kids here, I don't think I would put one up at all this year.

I am in a slump. A major one.

It's hard when you know that you can't provide for your family. It's hard when you become accustomed to a certain lifestyle, (Like a two income household) then have it ripped out from under you, and there is nothing you can do about it.

We have tried so many different things, and it seems as though we just keep getting knocked down.

I'm sick of it. I'm sick of always feeling so down, and not wanting to do anything. I'm sick of Andy feeling like he is inadequate at meeting our financial needs when he is doing the very best that he can. He can't do what two people, who were both in senior management positions, did before our lives changed.

I used to love the holidays. I used to go all out decorating. This year it just seems like it's just old. I am trying so hard to think positive. I really am.

Can I just sleep through the holidays?



Izzy 'N Emmy said...

I feel the exact same way this year. It sucks! I cried all morning on Friday. Why? Because I was actually jealous of all the great bargains and gift ideas on sale and I wasn't able to be a part of it. Even for the little things...I wanted to buy new towels. LOL! I know, crazy.

You and your family are always in my thoughts, even though I generally lurk. I hope you had a nice Thanksgiving with the family.

Carey said...

hey, ditto that. ryan feels awful all the time like he's not doing enough. it's just so hard and i keep telling him, we have a home, we have food on the table, and we're all here. what more could we need?

so what if we don't have the most presents under the tree, or a retirement plan, ... and those doctors bills, well, if it takes $10/month for twenty years, then so be it! we're right here with ya sister!

Anonymous said... least you have a tree. That's one up on me.

I do what I can to try to remember those that are less fortunate during these times, because even though I feel like we should have more, there are so many who have so much less.

I'm supporting two extras because of my daughter's choices. That makes it even more difficult for me to absorb. I've been doing this single mom thing for almost five years now. It's tough. Darn tough.

I have seen so many blogs this season of families going without, people who have lost their jobs, homes, so many things because of the economy.

My family knows this holiday will be sparse because our income doesn't allow anything more than that, they also know that Christmas isn't about what you receive.

I hope your able to find some holiday cheer this season.

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DTanner said...

I think everyone is having a hard time with the Holidays this year. I know I am. I just have no ambition to get my shopping done.