Monday, December 24, 2007

Words of Inspiration.......

"God can calm the storm, or He can let the storm rage and comfort His child instead."

And the storm does rage at our house. I have learned so many hard lessons in life the last two years. I keep asking God why He has given us so many trials, when before our life was just calm and normal. Today while I was in a store I saw a painting with the above saying.

Yes, the storm keeps raging on and on, but when I do need comfort, He is there.

My grandma took a turn for the worse today. I spent the day at the hospital being with her until my mom and my aunt could get away from work. It hurts my heart, as my grandma has signed DNR orders. She wants no antibiotics, no life saving measures at all.

She was up walking around last night, and has no coherence at all today. She is so frail, just skin and bones, and she has developed a bed sore from being down so much due to her hip surgery. There were times that her respiratory rate would drop to 3 and 6. It was so hard to be in the hospital in a situation like that, having the doctor come in and tell me that if she were to go downhill, he would not be quick to respond.

I hadn't taken my anxiety meds, and I was not ready to sit there and watch my grandmother go downhill in front of me. I ended up calling my mom and telling her she had to come to the hospital now, because I couldn't handle it.

I love my grandma so much, and it was so hard to see her like that.

Please pray that if she is going to get better she does soon, and if not, then she is pain free, and it is peaceful. She is one of the most amazing people I have ever known.

And....May you all have a Merry Chirstmas.

5 comments:

Damama T said...

Oh, honey, I am so sorry your family is going through this. I didn't blog about it because I couldn't figure out how to put it into words, but we lost the only man who was ever a daddy to me in October. I am so grateful that God took him home before Christmas. I think that would have been too much to bear.

Please know that you are in my prayers and my heart. I know you'll be Ok because your faith is strong and you know that she's only going home and will be waiting for you when you go, too.

Peace, blessings, Merry Christmas and a safe and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Kei said...

Oh Pam, your love for your Grandma shows with your words. She and your family are in my prayers.

Love & hugs,
Kei

Shannon **Gabi's Mom** said...

I hope things turn around for you soon!

I hope you and your family are blessed with a Merry Christmas and a Joy-filled New Year!

amy flege said...

pam i am so sorry you are going through this. I know your grama means so much to you. I hope she gets better soon!

angela said...

pam, its angie and mariah I havn't talked to you in a while and I was looking at your blog and saw this post. I just lost my dad a couple of weeks ago due to colon and liver cancer. he was diagnosed with it in october. he was only 57 and I watch him get to the point where he didn't know what he was saying he would say really off the wall things and get frustrated with us when we didn't understand him. and in a matter of days I saw him get worse to where he was in and out of consciousness. his respirations were so slow and he was in so much pain. I wish I had more time with him but I am so greatful that he went quick. I have come to realize that through hard times if you pay attention there are blessings along the way. I am thinking of you and your family. it is good to see some pictures of rhett and the other kids I hope you have a peacefull winter without to many illnesses. we are going in for mariah's third set of tubes tomarrow. and I am sitting here listening to cianna my 4 month old wheez. not to bad but enough to worry me a little and my husband is hunting in north dakota. yikes!! well happy new year to you
angie and mariah