Words of Inspiration.......

"God can calm the storm, or He can let the storm rage and comfort His child instead."

And the storm does rage at our house. I have learned so many hard lessons in life the last two years. I keep asking God why He has given us so many trials, when before our life was just calm and normal. Today while I was in a store I saw a painting with the above saying.

Yes, the storm keeps raging on and on, but when I do need comfort, He is there.

My grandma took a turn for the worse today. I spent the day at the hospital being with her until my mom and my aunt could get away from work. It hurts my heart, as my grandma has signed DNR orders. She wants no antibiotics, no life saving measures at all.

She was up walking around last night, and has no coherence at all today. She is so frail, just skin and bones, and she has developed a bed sore from being down so much due to her hip surgery. There were times that her respiratory rate would drop to 3 and 6. It was so hard to be in the hospital in a situation like that, having the doctor come in and tell me that if she were to go downhill, he would not be quick to respond.

I hadn't taken my anxiety meds, and I was not ready to sit there and watch my grandmother go downhill in front of me. I ended up calling my mom and telling her she had to come to the hospital now, because I couldn't handle it.

I love my grandma so much, and it was so hard to see her like that.

Please pray that if she is going to get better she does soon, and if not, then she is pain free, and it is peaceful. She is one of the most amazing people I have ever known.

And....May you all have a Merry Chirstmas.